So as I am writing this on my Blackberry, I'm sitting in a little diner somewhere off Jimmy Carter Blvd, waiting out the hell hail and rain and nasty, nasty traffic. It's dark now, the lights seem to fracture as they enter my eyes. We're tired, hungry, and I'm calming my nerves with a large glass of sweet tea. It's only slightly sweet, but I don't care; it's a comfort food, and that's all I wish for at the moment. Andy hugs Usa-chan as we order. It's standard American fare, a hamburger and a Rueben sans cheese, but in our exhaustion and hunger, the food tastes even better than it might otherwise. I kick off a seed of depression, knowing it's merely from battling the elements after walking around in a crowd of people and the whirlwind of emotional energy that accompanies it. Empathy may be useful in relating to people, but feeling so much energy in a room, so much excitement, and being pulled from that adrenaline and endorphine rush, tires one's own energy: a veritable rollercoaster of emotions.

The convention was a mix as well. It was exciting to go and learn and shop and act silly for a few hours, but in hindset I realize I should wear better shoes next time. My feet throb and ache, making walking difficult, and no one seemed to recognize who Andy and I were until we told them. A bit unnerving, given that it's my first try at a costume. Ah, well, next time.

However, there were some good things as well. I met Ms. Android_Raptor, and I was able to buy a few things for my collections, and I got to see some interesting outfits and things. I also got to attend a Writer's Roundtable, which was very informative (eventually I'll post what video I got of it). So, except for the rain, it was a good day. I'm already planning on going to another one, though I'm not sure when...perhaps I can lose some weight and wear my black/violet gothic lolita outift next time?

The rain's finally stopped, and it's time to pay the check. I'll post more later.

Cassandra

So I finally got to go out with Mom to the mall, and even though we didn't get to go a lot of places, we were able to pick up some neat stuff. I'm not sure which is bigger: The Chinese Jacket that looks...sort of similar to Silver's (except it has designs on it), or the MOTHERFRAKKIN PIPLUP HAT!
Haha, my mom noticed it at PicaPica (one of the Japanese/Korean stores in Discover Mills mall) and she said, "Aw, it looks liek like a penguin!"
I'm like, "yeah, it's a Piplup."
"Wasn't that on Pokemon?"
"Yeah."
"...It's still kind of cute."
So Andy and I talked her into letting us get a hat each (He got a Goomba, I got Piplup), since they were on sale.I also picked up some hair accessories: Some hair ties... (I think Hello Kitty? *shuffles around in bag*) Yeah, some cute HK hair bands, a pretty pair of orange flower hair clip/pins (they sort of remind me of Orihime's blue hair clips), a nice pair of chopsticks, and some orange Japanese soda. You know, the type you have to force the ball into the bottle?
And I kind of promised one woman I'd try to stop by her shop whenever I'm in the area (She offers reward points w00t!)...
Which means everything I got was connected to Japan/China somehow.

So yeah, I'm going back into geek  mode. Oh well, I can deal with that. Better than being depressed, eh?
Oh that note, I think I'm downgrading from "obsessed" to hobby on my stories, but that could be the depression flaring up and talking. Gahhhhh...
Although I'm really liking RP stuff now. Hahaha. I think I'll try out SG soon, maybe play as Silver, or maybe Gio... I hear they need a gym teacher. (Holy crap, I think a million voices cried out in terror at the thought of Giovanni being a gym teacher... XD)

But  yeah, keep me in your thoughts, and let's pray/hope/send good thoughts/whatever the depression doesn't get as bad as it got when I was 15, plzkthnx. I really don't want to go suicidal again ;_; It's not like I have a real reason to, but unfortunately...depression has a way of making mountains outta molehills. Hell, I'm having to bat back the "I wanna hubby!" wangst, because I think that might be a depression trigger. I mean, it's not like I'm not fairly attractive (YourMileageMayVary, but I'm not ugly), so maybe I'm just not ready for a relationship yet, and that's God's way of helping me grow (the depression part is all me, though, because I have a Self Confidence score of 3 :P)
Besides, I figure all the people telling me I'm a sweet girl means something (unless of course they're just being nicSHUT UP BRAIN!) or another. Hm, well, I've got some opportunities to meet guys coming up, anyway.

Upcoming stuff I REALLY WANT TO GO TO:
Momocon!: Oh gosh, it'll be my first convention sdjafjakkjf I'm so excited! I don't have a costume or anything, so I'll probably just go as a Pokemon Trainer XD (Jeans, check. Sneakers, check. Awesome hat [Piplup or Giovanni style fedora(HELLYEAH)], check! Backpack, check! Random Pokemon stuff, check! Hell, I think I even have some of those old Pokeball toys lying around...And I think I can find my plushies....
Of course, I could go as a female Silver... (SHUT UP. I'm redheaded, got the jacket... Hm, need a Gen2 starter plush...)
So whatcha ya'll think? Normal trainer, cool trainer (If I can find my boots and leather trench and hat, I can pull it off...I hope), or Female Silver?
(If I had more time and balls, I'd make an Athena outfit)

Next, there's YMJA Youth retreat in April. It's just an over-the-weekend thing, but I want to go pretty bad. I haven't done a youth outing in forever... and I can meet some cute Jewish boys! :)

And finally, if I get on the list (PLEASE G-D), there's a chance I can go on a FREE TRIP TO ISRAEL!!! UGH, I wanna go like burning!

Hm, that's all I can think of for now... except for the fact I have math class tomorrow (;_;)

I'll try to get some pics of the stuff, especially the shirt and Piplup hat, so stay tuned! ^_^

Pip, Piplup!,
GxS

EDIT: Oh, and at the store I promised the lady I'd pop back by, there was this weird wallet...It had a woman kicking a guy giving her flowers, and it was orange and had a "R" on the back, styled like the Team Rocket one... I have no idea what it's from, but I think I need to pick it up... (If I have it if I go as Silver, i can say it's my mom kicking Dad (Gio) or something :P it sounded good at the time, okay?)