I've had one crush that got reciprocated, and that was when I was 10 or so. Yeah, that's all. The rest of the crushes were on a few movie characters and anime ones... (Aragorn and Legolas...and I think you can figure out my first anime one *blush*) I know the 'freak' feeling... *sob* To say nothing that my last MAJOR crush was pretty messed up. Know what codependency is? I had it on my last crush, who was 10 years my senior and not that good of a match. But because he helped me out with some pretty major psychological stuff, I subcounciously latched onto him... *sigh* And now when he brings up it jokingly, I want to punch him in the face. It's like "STFU, I made a mistake ok?!" I'm actually glad I didn't end up with him, he's got a ton of issues of his own.
Ugh, seriously?! Bastards... Hmph, I've never been with a man in any sense of the word. Guess who are going to be the ones who aren't emotionally scared from crap teenage relationships? US For the record I think you'd be an awesome girlfriend for a lucky guy. As my older "brother" said, "you've got someone out there for you." It's just convincing myself of that that's hard.
Of course, the above is exacerbated by the fact that everything goes wrong the 1-2 months before Passover. And I do mean everything. And I think my mood swings/returning depression is part of it... ARGGGGGH... (The Ayah is not pleased!)
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Yeah, that's all.
The rest of the crushes were on a few movie characters and anime ones... (Aragorn and Legolas...and I think you can figure out my first anime one *blush*)
I know the 'freak' feeling... *sob*
To say nothing that my last MAJOR crush was pretty messed up. Know what codependency is? I had it on my last crush, who was 10 years my senior and not that good of a match. But because he helped me out with some pretty major psychological stuff, I subcounciously latched onto him...
*sigh* And now when he brings up it jokingly, I want to punch him in the face. It's like "STFU, I made a mistake ok?!"
I'm actually glad I didn't end up with him, he's got a ton of issues of his own.
Ugh, seriously?! Bastards...
Hmph, I've never been with a man in any sense of the word. Guess who are going to be the ones who aren't emotionally scared from crap teenage relationships? US
For the record I think you'd be an awesome girlfriend for a lucky guy. As my older "brother" said, "you've got someone out there for you."
It's just convincing myself of that that's hard.
Of course, the above is exacerbated by the fact that everything goes wrong the 1-2 months before Passover. And I do mean everything. And I think my mood swings/returning depression is part of it... ARGGGGGH...
(The Ayah is not pleased!)